I have been having a lot of trouble adjusting to being His slave again. My loneliness without him is really making me cranky, which makes me want to be disobedient. I still haven't learned that by disobeying Him wont get me more time. Previously it has even led to less time with Him.
There is no one around! Everyone is gone because it is Spring Break. I'm so bored and Master doesn't have time and i always know that this isn't because He doesnt love me or because He doesnt want to spend time with me but it still hurts.
Getting so close to sub-space and having it ripped away from me really hurts, and makes me feel the frenzy coming again.
Am i really going to sit here, all dressed up cute for Saint Patricks Day, and spend this night watching tv and browzing online?
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what do u mean by Sub-space?
ReplyDeletesub-space is, as i understand it, is a state of mind you can enter. I havent experienced it as of yet so i cannot really explain. I believe it will be almost out of body, extremely fulfilling, and very draining
ReplyDeleteoh wow. I love reading ur posts by the way. :)
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