Introduction to My Relationship

I entered the lifestyle, as we call it, in August 2009. The urge for BDSM had been with me all my life, and until then, i had never had a way to describe and express these needs. Finding Him was the best thing that happened to me, as it helped me find who i really am.

Very quickly, we progressed into a M/s relationship. Before i say the full name of this, i want to describe it. A M/s relationship is different depending on who is involved, but for me, is full of love and commitment. M/s is a form of power exchange, where one person gives up powers to the other. This can be very comforting to both parties, knowing that there is someone who wants to make you happy in this different way. Honestly, understanding the concept may be quite frightening to some (like my mother, i wonder what she would think!), and an outrage to others. In my case, i am the "s," and receive great satisfaction by pleasing my "M." Relinquishing power to Him gives me happiness, and receiving the power i WILLINGLY have given to Him pleases Him.

M/s stands for Master(Mistress)/slave. This is not the form of "slave" that many of us think of immediately, it is simply the name given to this relationship. There should not be any truly terrible thing happening to the slave, and most of the accounts we hear of these sorts of relationships are the bad ones, through the news. Honestly, this relationship gave me great happiness that i had never experienced before.

If you are wondering of my typing, in a M/s relationship, the Master or Mistress is generally capitalized (He, Her, His, Hers, etc), while the slave is not capitalized (i), and together is often referred to as W/we or U/us. My Master does not require this of me, however i will do my best to type this way, for the benefit of T/those whom would.

I started this blog because i need the ability to express myself safely, and to think about and talk about BDSM and O/our relationship. I will continue with my story tomorrow, as it is very late (reason for any grammar and typos) and I have midterms tomorrow... The passion had filled me and I needed to write.