All relatioships take a lot of work, as i am surely finding out. The good usually is worth the bad. Master wrote this poem for me, the first poem He has ever written ever.
My love takes my breath away and always steals my heart.
The way she twirls her hair is sure to make a spark.
As I sit back and take in a deep breath of her perfumed filled air,
She sits and wonders why I stare.
My feelings for her are like a rollercoaster some times up and some times down but my love for her is so profound.
As my head whirls here and there!
I long, for her loving stare.
As my chest begins to breathe and my heart begins to pound!
I wonder if she knows?
She makes my world go round.
With each day my love for her grows anew.
And with that I will end this poem with,
I LOVE YOU!!!!
Isn't it adorable??? I love you too!!!
Friday, we hung out with his best friend for a while. He had been whispering beautiful things in my ear, when some things were brought up by his friend that i did not want to discuss, and i chose to purposefully not answer the questions. Master answered for me...and more questions were asked, becoming more and more personal. I started crying, and wondering why would he be answering such questions, when the information, to me, was told in confidence. I started crying at the bar, and ran off to the bathroom to compose myself and dry my tears. I looked at the mirror and wanted to die.
Once composed, i went back outside. They were no longer at the bar. I figured they were in the restroom, but i could not go back out to the bar alone, so i walked outside, knowing that we needed to leave very quickly. I waited outside for quite a while, and Master eventually texted me to come in. I told Him i was outside waiting. They still took quite a while to come out.
Master and i got in the car and He appologized and explained why He answered for me. He was trying to defend me. I explained that i chose not to answer because i would rather "loose" the conversation than to explain my whole life to someone. Master hadn't realized that i told him that in confidence.
Sunday, March 21, 2010
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hello. I am not a pro at advice but i think you should write him a poem back. You could Have it explain what your feeling. How you need that constant communication with him. Explain to him why you feel like you want to end it. (not meaning directly say "i think i want to end it" lol just poetically) something like that. I hope i could help at least a little and im looking forward to your next entry
ReplyDeletelol the blog is my way of telling him these things without taking up so much of our little, precious time together
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